I don't care about headlines they just can't describe what the text wants to tell

I'm laying here,
would go through hell to see you .
Just to get happy again,
but by now I'm not shure.
What should I do?
 Would it be right to stop everything?
I could be happy without all those people around, but without you I'm just unuseless at all.
I need you to feel happy, to smile, to see that world isn't just a big lie.
But tell me what should I do to be with you?
Would it be right if I could be by your side? You are my inspiration in this cold world.
The words you say, when you speak to me, are spakling, they gave me feelings, I've never known before ,they show me the ways to happiness, but they also lead me through the bad days, with thoughts which make myself think of everystep I'll take. They can keep me from sleeping in the evening, with the ways they tell me i could go if I just would take my chance to say you that I need you . But I'm afraid of what you will say, when I'm standing there with you eye to eye waiting for the answer, waiting  for what you will say .